Before Sunset.

by Ofi Zukhrufia

Have no idea why I’m feeling blue lately.
Maybe it’s the hormones speaking, but still.
Mungkin gara-gara cuaca Jogja yang hujan melulu, bawaannya jadi… Yagitudeh.
Makasih banyak buat seseorang yang (dengan sialnya) sering mampir ke pikiranku beberapa hari terakhir. Phew.
(Bukan S kok, well in case you’re wondering)

Atau gara-gara kebanyakan nonton drama?
Habis nonton Before Sunset dan baru aja selesai baca The Fault In Our Stars.
Mengutip kata Nina, quote-able banget :”)
Habis nonton Before Sunset langsung….. Shit this movie reminds me of someone particular, that someone who has been running in my mind for the last few days :/
Adegan Celine nyanyi lagu ciptaannya buat Jesse, waktu mereka ngobrol di kedai kopi, waktu mereka ngobrol di kapal, well sepanjang film mereka emang ngobrol terus sih :/ Nonton sendiri aja deh :))

Jesse: Oh, God, why didn’t we exchange phone numbers and stuff? Why didn’t we do that?
Celine: Because we were young and stupid.
Jesse: Do you think we still are?
Celine: I guess when you’re young, you just believe there’ll be many people with whom you’ll connect with. Later in life, you realize it only happens a few times.
Jesse: And you can screw it up, you know, misconnect.

Jesse: Life’s hard. It’s supposed to be. If we didn’t suffer, we’d never learn anything.

Celine: Even being alone it’s better than sitting next to your lover and feeling lonely.

Celine: [Celine’s song] Let me sing you a waltz / Out of nowhere, out of my thoughts / Let me sing you a waltz / About this one night stand / You were, for me, that night / Everything I always dreamt of in life / But now you’re gone / You are far gone / All the way to your island of rain / It was for you just a one night thing / But you were much more to me, just so you know / I don’t care what they say / I know what you meant for me that day / I just want another try, I just want another night / Even if it doesn’t seem quite right / You meant for me much more than anyone I’ve met before / One single night with you, little Jesse, is worth a thousand with anybody / I have no bitterness, my sweet / I’ll never forget this one night thing / Even tomorrow in other arms, my heart will stay yours until I die / Let me sing you a waltz / Out of nowhere, out of my blues / Let me sing you a waltz / About this lovely one night stand

Celine: Memory is a wonderful thing if you don’t have to deal with the past.

Jesse: Oh, God, why weren’t you there, in Vienna?
Celine: I told you why.
Jesse: Well, I know why, I just – I wish you would have been. Our lives might have been so much different.
Celine: You think so?
Jesse: I actually do.
Celine: Maybe not. Maybe, we would have hated each other eventually.
Jesse: Oh what, like we hate each other now?
Celine: You know, maybe we’re – we’re only good at brief encounters, walking around in European cities in warm climate.

Jesse: You want to know why I wrote that stupid book?
Celine: Why?
Jesse: So that you might come to a reading in Paris and I could walk up to you and ask, “Where the fuck were you?”
Celine: [laughing] No – you thought I’d be here today?
Jesse: I’m serious. I think I wrote it, in a way, to try to find you.
Celine: Okay, that’s – I know that’s not true, but that’s sweet of you to say.
Jesse: I think it is true.

Jesse: You know, I think that book that I wrote, in a way, was like building something. So that I wouldn’t forget the… details of the time that we spent together. You know, like just a reminder that… that once we really did meet! You know, that this was real! That this happened!
Celine: I’m happy you’re saying that, because… I mean, I always feel like a freak, because I’m never able to move on like… this! You know. People just have an affair, or even entire relationships… they break up and they forget! They move on like they would have changed brand of cereals! I feel I was never able to forget anyone I’ve been with. Because each person have… their own, specific qualities. You can never replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That’s why I’m very careful with getting involved, because… It hurts too much! Even getting laid! I actually don’t do that… I will miss on the other person the most mundane things. Like I’m obsessed with little things. Maybe I’m crazy, but… when I was a little girl, my mom told me that I was always late to school. One day she followed me to see why. I was looking at chestnuts falling from the trees, rolling on the sidewalk, or… ants crossing the road, the way a leaf casts a shadow on a tree trunk… Little things. I think it’s the same with people. I see in them little details, so specific to each of them, that move me, and that I miss, and… will always miss. You can never replace anyone, because everyone is made of such beautiful specific details. Like I remember the way, your beard has a bit of red in it. And how the sun was making it glow, that… that morning, right before you left. I remember that, and… I missed it! I’m really crazy, right?

I feel you, Jesse :’)
Oke maafkan saya yang langsung flooding postingan ini dengan quotes tanpa menceritakan sinopsisnya.
Before Sunset adalah sekuel dari Before Sunrise, dan merupakan film sebelum Before Midnight.
Di Before Sunrise (aku juga belom nonton sih, filmnya tahun 95 bayangpun) Jesse & Celine nggak sengaja ketemu di kereta. In short, they had this romantic fling and ended up had one night stand. Mereka janjian untuk ketemu lagi di Vienna, beberapa tahun setelah itu. Dan filmnya bersambung wkwk.
9 tahun kemudian, jadilah si Before Sunset.
Mereka ketemu di Paris, Jesse udah jadi seorang penulis novel (yang novelnya isinya kisah hubungan dia sama Celine) dan dia lagi ngadain meet&greet gitu. So they met, again. And the story goes….

Well, biasanya aku bukan pecinta drama, tapi yah…
Quotes-nya The Fault In Our Stars di postingan berikutnya, haha.